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  • Listening to: The Smiths
  • Eating: Fags (well, smoking ofcourse)
  • Drinking: Coffee
So if you still want to follow me 'round:
:iconpsychedelic-purr:

c:

ILL TRY TO POST MORE OFTEN D:
  • Listening to: Joy Division
  • Eating: Fags (well, smoking ofcourse)
  • Drinking: Coffee
I really should for a change....
  • Listening to: Joy Division
  • Eating: Fags (well, smoking ofcourse)
  • Drinking: Coffee
I want him to know.
I'm gonna talk to him if possible, he either has to tell what the heck is going on, or I'll just leave him.
I don't want someone to break me who doesn't even DESERVE to break me. I mean, what the heck have I done wrong bro?
I just want to have fun with you again ;-;
It's either he tells me what's going on and I'll promise, I'll do ANYTHING to change it. Or he just keeps being this way and I'll leave/ignore him and won't be sure if I'll ever talk again. It's just really bothering me you know, I want him to know he's hurting me.
I can't concentrate at school because of him, and he makes me feel really miserable because he's being so harsh.
Dammnit I thought I met a nice fella...


Or is he on his man-period? ._.

Ugh, why so complicated?!

Fuck it, :icontickinggears: , What's going on? ;-;
  • Listening to: Joy Division
  • Eating: Fags (well, smoking ofcourse)
  • Drinking: Coffee
I freak out about everything to anything. It's freaking me out.
I can't really control them.
Suicidal thoughts again as well.
I don't want to go to a doctor.
Ugh I'm fucked?
  • Listening to: Joy Division
  • Eating: Fags (well, smoking ofcourse)
  • Drinking: Coffee
People, send me inspiration. I don't have any.
And I'm exhausted as always.
  • Listening to: Bright Eyes
  • Reading: Arnon Grunberg, Figuranten
  • Eating: Fags (well, smoking ofcourse)
  • Drinking: Coffee
Apparently I have made an OC....
Thanks for Ya help :icontickinggears:
I'll upload a drawing of her in a mo...
  • Listening to: The Horrors
  • Reading: Arnon Grunberg, Figuranten
  • Eating: Fags (well, smoking ofcourse)
  • Drinking: Tea
GIMME INSPIRATION D:<
I'm so fecking bored and and and and and ;-;
I CAN"T FUCKING THINK OF ANY-FUCKING-THING TO DRAW ;-;
...
Well I do but I don't have the materials, or the rain. FUCK IT JUST WHEN I ACTUALLY *WANT* IT TO RAIN IT STOPS >:U

Oh Christ this is what you get when you've been totally isolated for a week cosof a fever. You start to talk to yourself... O_o
Wait I actually already did...
  • Listening to: The Horrors
  • Reading: Arnon Grunberg, Figuranten
  • Eating: Fags (well, smoking ofcourse)
  • Drinking: Tea
Meh.

The Horrors and The Vaccines are pretty fecking great tho.
Sorry random XD


I'm so bored ;-;
I've been ill for the past 3 days :U
Might go to school tomorrow but it's not much use :/
  • Listening to: Elliott Smith
  • Reading: Arnon Grunberg, Figuranten
  • Eating: Fags (well, smoking ofcourse)
  • Drinking: Tea
I'm going to like, my best friend tomorrow! C:
I can't wait xD
Just letting him know (even though he already knows, I've been stalking him all week :D)
RIGHT NICK? XD
  • Listening to: Elliott Smith
  • Reading: Arnon Grunberg, Figuranten
  • Eating: Fags (well, smoking ofcourse)
  • Drinking: Tea
Today's my first day in Arendonk!!! I'm so excited!!
GOING TO ARTSCHOOL. AT LAST! :D

I hope it'll be great :U
IT MUST BE.
Right?
YES.
HELLYEAH!

:3
  • Listening to: Sisters Of mercy
  • Reading: Something by John Fowles
  • Eating: Fags (well, smoking ofcourse)
  • Drinking: Tea
Apparently "Nijnjte" is called MIFFY in English... That just sounds... Disgusting... Eww..
MIFFY. :iconwtffaceplz:

And I really should stop smoking, my throat is hurting so much... I keep coughing...

Uhm.. School has started again, and it's so much fun! I forgot how much I loved hanging around with the kids at school. And ofcourse met some new kids, they're awesome ^^ And saw all my favourite teachers back! YAAY. XD Just one but still, and I've got a new one who's really cool. But oh well. :P

Uhmm.. OH, and I'll go to the art school in Arendonk!! I'm so happy C:

And I shouldn't write because my English is terrible since I got Mr Van Der Donk for English instead of Van De Wal (One of the coolest teachers ever, just saying XDD)

Annnd... I'm telling you too much. WAY TOO MUCH >_>

xoxoxox

Jelly

:iconmorrisseyplz:
  • Listening to: Editors & AFI
  • Reading: Coming Up For Air - George Orwell
  • Drinking: Tea with milk
My mind is beginning to play tricks on me. And I'm not quite sure if that's because of the sleepingpills I'm taking or that I've just plainly gone crazy. Either way, it's creeping me out.

For example, last night. I had taking about 3 sleepingpills but couldn't fall asleep. Maybe that was because I drank 4 cups of coffee that day... I don't know. Anyway, I was lying on my bed, lazing around. Listening to AFI (I'v re-discovered them once again!) when, all of a sudden, the lights went out. I didn't hear a sound you know, nothing that sounded like a light getting unplugged. So, stupid as I am, I just plugged it in again, not realizing that that was pretty fucking impossible. I mean, I was the only person in the room! A fly can't do such things? Once I've realized that I became very aware of my surroundings, I felt cold breezes and I don't know. I didn't feel alone. Creeped me out a lot.. So I just went downstairs, brought my dog with me, so, he slept in my room all night.

It's as if I'm becoming imune for the sleepingpills, too. As if I have taken too many of them, or that I need more of them if I want them to work properly? And I'm already taking 2 at once ._.

God, it's just the fucking boredom. I've got nothing to do, just imagine that I'm doing things... It's killing me. If I get too bored I might just as well do another stupid thing, you know. It's boredom that makes me do such things. Fucking bastards just don't- ugh, I don't fucking care anymore. I want to leave, just don't know where to stay...

Great, Jelly... >_>
  • Listening to: Suede
  • Reading: Coming Up For Air - George Orwell
  • Drinking: Tea with milk
I've been living off them, the last few days. I just take them, fall asleep, wake up, take them, fall asleep, wake up, take them, etc, etc. Goes to the point that I begin to feel quite depressed.

I cannot complain too much, I've got to be honest about that. (I'm trying to stop using 'though' at the end of every sentence, I don't even think it's proper English. And I miss my Oscar Wilde-ish way of writing. It looks so nerdy y'know.)
Anyway, I might be going to my second concert in 10 days. CocoRosie. (I'm so sorry :iconpshyo: you should come to Holland D:) My mum likes them too so, we'll probably by tickets as a barfday present for ourselfs. (my mum's barfday is the 28th and mine is the 30st of july) So, if we really are going, I'll just be focussing on that moment for the next couple of days. Maybe that'll ease the boredom...

I had a nice way of waking up, I just wanted to mention that. My radio had been on all night. (funny/weird fact; I cannot sleep without music playing. Else I won't fall asleep, and dare not call me a music freak ;) )
Studio Brussel is really great actually. They had been broadcasting Rock Werchter all evenening. I heard Mumford And Sons (<3) and I especially liked the Editors. I've been listening to The Editors quite a lot lately. They sound like a happier, fastier version of Joy Division. And, talking about Joy Division. That's what made my morning so perfect. I woke up, I dreamt that someone was talking to me in my room (it's scary, I have that quite a lot lately) and Love Will Tear Us Apart by Joy Division was playing on the radio! :)

I've had quite enough of StudioBrussel, can't really help it. I don't fucking understand a word Belgium people say (I can exaggerate very well ;) ) so, I want to know what FM Arrow Classic Rock is. They play quite a lot of The Doors and Pink Floyd on there ya know ^_^

So, I'll-
Bleh I dunno.

Oh, I drew Siouxsie Sioux by the by :"D
She's amazing :I

..the happy house, we're happy here, inthe happy house..
lalalaal fun fun, fuunn. woooooooooooh XD
  • Listening to: Gotye - Eyes Wide Open
  • Reading: Coming Up For Air - George Orwell
  • Drinking: Tea with milk
Waking up at 6. I kinda had a bad trip yesterday. I had this,, uhm.. waking up 3 times in a row, y'know? That you wake up, and then wake up again from  a dream, AND AGAIN. Freaked me out. I thought aliens where taking me away lol, I couldn't move and my hands became numb..

So, wake up at 6, listening to Frank Zappa now, he's awesome. Drinking beer and smoking some weed.

I'm such an idiot. I have to go to school in an hour.. >_>

Drunk and stoned... wtf..

I'm going to look for my teacher, I have to give him a book and some drawings. Got Damon Albarn ya know. I hate school... I'm fucking tired y'know XD
  • Listening to: Gotye - Eyes Wide Open
  • Reading: Coming Up For Air - George Orwell
  • Drinking: Tea with milk
I really do. They always turn out to be nightmares. Or people turn into pedos. Or I have an amazing dream and then I wake up. But most of the time they're nightmares...

Gets to the point that I am afraid to go to bed. Well, not afraid, just really don't want to. I hardly sleep you know. Fucking tired..
  • Listening to: Gotye - Eyes Wide Open
  • Reading: Coming Up For Air - George Orwell
  • Drinking: Tea with milk
This is so happy emo.. But I can't help loving this song XD


DINOOOSAAAAURSS GOOOOO RAAAAAAAAAAAAAAWR
Everybody knows that :3
DINOSAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAURS GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO RAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAWR

www.youtube.com/watch?v=rZrhRc…
XD
  • Listening to: Gotye - Eyes Wide Open
  • Reading: Coming Up For Air - George Orwell
  • Drinking: Tea with milk
I've just watched a whole season of it. 4 bloody hours...
'Cause I have no life.

Then watched an episode of Cow And Chicken.
'Cause I have no life.

Now I'll probably go read in bed and fall asleep with my book still in my hands.
'Cause, as you may know, I have no life.

Then I'll probably wake up around 4 PM 'cause I have to talk to some woman about life.
'Cause unfortunately I have no life.

Then I'll go to bed again, skip dinner and wake up at 9, to print a picture so I can draw.
'Cause I have no life.

Then I'll go to bed again and wake up at 8 AM to do exactly the same.
'Cause, my dear friends, I have no life.

~Jelly.
  • Listening to: Elliott Smith, Gorillaz, meh..
  • Reading: Coming Up For Air - George Orwell
  • Drinking: Tea with milk
I really do.
Fucking 21st century...

It's just that I don't have anything else to do.

Beside drawing and reading....

Most of the time I'm too lazy to get lost you know...

School's over, too. Mèh..

I REALLY want a guitar (I have one for kids..)
I really want to learn to play guitar, you know.. Then I'll have something to do untill school starts again.

Always wanted to play guitar. I remember sitting in the car when I was like, 5 years old, leaning out of the window and singing songs I heard on the radio (like Panic at The Disco ;)) and thinking of how cool it'd be to be a star. Sing for hundreds of people. Still love that idea, always will. Always loved the idea of sitting on a chair, playing some guitar for a bunch of weirdos who adore you.

Also liked the idea of acting. My whole fucking life is one big act. I love making a show out of small things. People won't take you very serious when you do, but to be honest I don't think I'll EVER be taken serious. Wether I do what I like or follow the big herd of idiots. So, if I have to chose, I rather do what I like then be what people want me to be.

Always be true to yourself, not to others, just to yourself. Do what you think is good for you...

Got to love Elliott Smith, song's called Everything's Okay:
www.youtube.com/watch?v=gF9MUn…
Everything's okay
Walks along the dock
With some sailor's pay
Shoved down in his sock
Everything's okay
With some little boy in blue
Who don't know you like I do

Everything's okay
Took him back to town
Well, I didn't get paid today
So I'm in the lost and found
And I wonder if that clown
Knows just what to do
What to say and what not to

The pretty words that you whispered
Maybe I misunderstood
Somebody's not paying attention
What they promised and their word isn't good

Everything's okay
I'm looking for you now
Down here by the bay
Where the water pounds
Up against the wall
That I'm coming to
Because I can't stay away from you

I don't need no satisfaction
And I don't take just because I can
Sometimes I get a strong impression
That you just don't understand
That kind of man

Everything's okay
I can see your face
Don't there in the waves
Painted and erased
But I'm told it's just
The reflection of the moon
A big fake resembling you

I'm going to go down in the water
And fill my mouth up full of sand
And I'll be waiting still impatient
With my dead imagination
While you're with some other man

Everything's okay
I'll be with you soon
I'm walking out to place
My arms around the moon
Yeah, I'll be with you soon
Just as soon as I pay
I'll walk across the water
Everything's okay
Walk on the water
Everything's okay

:heart:

I think it's harder to hate the world than to love it. Maybe I should try it out some day... Heh..
  • Listening to: Elliott Smith, Gorillaz, meh..
  • Reading: Coming Up For Air - George Orwell
  • Drinking: Tea with milk
that each of us lives in the mind of a 13 year old girl.

That's all.

No more giant babies anymore.
No more trashcan-hells.

Just 13 year old girls.

They're the cause of evil.

Random me: But you're 13 too..
Me: SHI-


The End.
  • Listening to: Gorillaz
  • Eating: biting my nails
  • Drinking: Coffee
ELLIOTT SMITH


Y U NO ALIVE ANYMORE?!?! :iconragefaceplz:


*cries in a corner* :iconemocornerplz:



TROLOLOL :iconelliottsmithplz: